DEEP BLUE SOMETHING

     Dealing with all the information and decisions keeps your mind off things for a time, but after awhile things have a way of asserting themselves.  

     Depression sets in.  It follows no set time frame or formula.  It can manifest as mild or severe.  It comes and goes without rhyme or reason.

     I have dealt with depression in some form or another for most of my life.  It started in my early teens.  I went through therapy and found ways to deal with it.  The depression never truly went away but I managed to handle it.  So when I was diagnosed with cancer I was not surprised that I became depressed.  

     I was not prepared for the depth and swiftness it hit.  The first time my mind slowed down I went into a tailspin.  My depressive episodes usually feel like I am sinking in a pool,  but this episode felt like I was being forced under water by huge crashing waves over and over.  

     I have been able to deal with the episodes so far because of my history with depression, but I can only imagine how overwhelming the feelings could be to someone who has no experience with depression.  It is very important for the folks who are going through this to understand it is PERFECTLY normal.  Do not be afraid to tell your Doctor about what you are going through, they may even prescribe something to help you get through it.  They may also suggest a therapist to help you. Remember you do not have to be in this alone.  

One Day at a Time